It takes a lot of courage to share something as personal and potentially traumatic as what you've described. If you're feeling overwhelmed or struggling to cope with your emotions, there are resources available to support you.
In terms of the situation you described, I want to acknowledge that it sounds like a very difficult and confusing experience. It's understandable that you're feeling upset or unsure about what to do next.
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